The Haunted Note

I have died.
I don't really remember how,
All I can remember is a note
I know I did not write for it is not in my handwriting,
It is far too legible,
It had one word, just one.
I read it then I died, sort of.
I am still alive just not in the inside.
I am haunted by that one word day in and day out!
Haunted, haunted, haunted.
Words, words, words!
They can heal and they can break,
But even if you use a word to heal
It takes one word from someone else to break that word like glass. smash.
Then it will take gallons of superglue to fix it.
I am haunted,
One person,
One note,
One word,
One ghost that will never leave,
I have tried time and time again
but no matter what I try that ghost is there,
That ghost that everyone has ,big or small.
nagging me telling me to give up,
the voice growing Louder and LOUDER!
till it is all I can hear. I am internally screaming.
It hasn't yet but slowly my interior is cracking,
Soon, my exterior will fall along with it.
~Alyssa Bordonaro

Too Much

Too much is happening all at once.
It's so loud I can't think
People are pushing and bumping into me
Stop, please stop,
I can't anymore
It's so hard to continue
I'm in sensory overload
It's all …
Too much
~Alyssa Bordonaro

Who I am inside

I have colors all over my skin
But… inside… I am black and white
People say I am expressing myself through the drawings on my skin
But I am drawing others around me never myself
When I do draw myself I have to lie
Not wanting people to realize that I am black and white inside
I don't want help
I need help.
From friends not from strangers
I am the drawings on my skin because that is who I aspire to be
Not who I am inside
~Alyssa Bordonaro

Hanahaki

Noun Def.
a fictional disease in which the victim coughs up flower petals when they suffer from one-sided love.
It ends when the beloved returns their feelings (romantic love only; strong friendship is not enough), or when the victim dies.
I am being torn apart from the inside
They're slowly filling my lungs,
Suffocating me
Every breath hurts
I don't think I can keep living like this.
~Alyssa Bordonaro